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I feel the burden, a lot. I even can't handle my anxiety, insecurity. I'm suck. Good with pretending, that is me. It hurts but that is usual for me. Not that dumb to do something worst, still hoping for the best. I'm hurts, why ? Good with words, still dumb. Praying, praying, praying, praying. Stay strong, Not about him, just myself. I promised. I'm hoping for myself to be better not him. He do nothing wrong. T r u s t  M e. I can't handle myself. Anxiety, insecurity: Repeat Wanna go home. Pray for myself. I wanna cry, so bad. But it just a waste. Me deserve better. InsyaAllah, amin.

Hi geng, ssup I'm back again. Just finished my exam .. another 2papers to go.. So kelmarin (2daysago), Me with nis on call laik really a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong called. Thats us kuikui. So at that one moment, I saja suruh nis invite him, and yea he angkat but got some stuff to do so he will called like another half hours. Actually, I had a very late night thoughts everyday. IDK why, it was a random things. About my future, love life, money...myself. Then, tak tau why suddenly la kan i had this one random thoughts,,, tiber. So i told that to Anis. Anis was laik "Bish why kau baru sedar sekrang" So back to our called ritu. He was there, we talked usually, random things. Suddenly I've got this feelings to asked about my thoughts too. I suruh nis hold the call, so it just me & him. I was nervouse, istg. I'm shaking as hell but I pretend to be cool. So what was the thoughts? I asked him out. ME IS DEAD. Look...

Hey, how you doing kekek. I'm back. It's 12:46a.m. already lol. Actually my sleep routine was changed as hell. If ada kelas I nak tidur awal, if takda kelas nak lambat pulak. Student life kekek. I tried to do on diet, i'm not eating nasi a week jugak lah, least of a week kahkah. But I know it not working on me sebab I makan biskut jugak doh, lol sugar. meh. I'm writing this with my lo-fi on ! Theres a lot nak ckap kat sini actually. A LOT. First of all, Alhamdulillah me with Anis still closed. Even jauh pun but you know we can handle that. I have my other friends too like her, her, him and yeah him. So this boy, i will call him K lah cause i like to type kekeke? k LAME. K is such a good guy friend of mine. We met on 2016, lol kawan sekolah kahkah. We got so many scandals gitu but still in contact and CLOSED till now. I dont know how I can handle that dude doh hhahha. As I said we were in 'scandal' issues. Not a big deal, biasalah normal hahaha. OH ...

Hey Assalamualaikum, its been a while. Look I've been searching this blog tiba-tiba because i JUST REMEMBERED that I made my own blogspopt. damn,,,,,.  I'm in college now, it's hard. I know there's no one seeing this blog but I want make it memorial, gituw. Got so many to say... Battery laptop dah nak habis ni, I'm studying actually for my final. Wish me luck. Will be back soon. See ya