My bad

Hye, I'm back.

So for yesterday, me & nos went out together and guess what. I've been doing my new glasses. Lol I need her help to chose my glasses cse i taknak regret for 3rd times? Okay, next story is, both of us hanging out with Ca ! WOOOOOOOOO.

Look, Ca have being our friends like a closed friends before this. But we got some masalah so we being apart for a while. Lol I selalu je in contact with her and yea yesterday with them was great. Im happy like legit !

So semalam three of us hanging out kejap kat tealive baru bukak. So ca nak beli her drinks so we wait la. Cse baru bukak so memang ramai af. Before tunggu, masuk la kedaiitu ini then tiba2 ada empty seats kat tealive so we duduk ah kahkah.

After ca got her tealive kitaorang balik, dah sampai panchor got notification that I knew from him or nos but nos tengah drive so obviously from him. I gelabah cri fon and yea ..from him in our group lol.

He said he wants to suprised us dekat tealive tu sebab he hangin out with his parents dekat kedai makan area situ. So, he sanggup jalan kaki nak suprisekan kitaorang based from Anis story on ig then boom he suprised himself cse kitaorang dah balik lol. This pu-ta.

Act nak patah balik but bish pls I'm not that desperate, pft. Just bear in mind that "ada lagi baik dari ni". THIS IS IZZAH OKAH.

Nos hantar I balik kat rumah, lol we stopped dekat depan rumah I and stayed in a car then sambung spills tea. Okay gurau, we're just you know chit-chatting..jap.. okay sama je.


So around 10p.m gitu I masuk la rumah then terus laying on my bed. Scrolling socmed and like usual I stalked him.

So he liked his friend tweets back. Okay cita dia ceni, tweet tu abt special aprreciation post abt him dengan his kawan perempuan. With their photos. Okay, first impression I saw that, I just looking at him je tau sebab his cute poses. OH CMON! 🙈

SUMPAH SESUMPAHNYA, I takde rasa jealous ke apa sebab cmon kawan dia lantak lah 😂

Well after that I stalked him back, dia unlike. Lepastu last night I check dia Liked balik. Then I pun bodoh gerak hati nak tengok that girl punya twitter.

Yaw ssup I found something that AKU DAH AGAK HAHAHAHAH. (nothingrelatedwithrelationshipokahchillah)

Im okay then i told nis. Nis said "we need to expect this from the start, and yea we did and yea he did"

Fug yes. HAHAHA.Then she said..

" Are u okay?"

I am okay, but my insecurity were not.  It just, idk how to describe actually.

It feels like, "oh aku tak ngam dengan dia cause he interestt wth that but im not so tak ngam ah bye ah"

.. and it makes me feel nak cancel keluar dengan dia berdua. look how stupid am I right?

I always said that I'm happy if he is happy. Actually, I hate myself bcs it hurts me a bit when he's happy. I blame myself bcs I'm the one that want to feel this way.

I don't make myself as his special friend or girl if he talks sweet to me, saying "iloveyou". Naw.. still bear in mind that he can do it wth anyone. Doesnt mean anything with that words. Klau I nak flutter pun sekejap je then buat chill.

ehem Yaw, if you find my blog. Then you read this.. I'm sorry for being hurts bcs of this shit. Congrats and goodluck in your new course eh. Aku sanggup turun ego nak tanya kau dapat apa tau kalau tak aku nak diam je. I hate you er.

Oh one last thing, we planned nak pergi melaka. I hope we can make it bhahaha. Doa baik2 je la hm.

That's it for today malas nak type panjang2 hm, Anong.💛